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Having Faith in an Abundance of Sorrow



It may only be Wednesday, but, honestly, these last few days have felt like a month. These past few days have been rather heavy emotionally, so it hasn't been the happiest week.

This past weekend, a fellow University of Illinois journalism student passed away. Even though the College of Media is rather small, and it's easy to know a lot of the other students in the college and major of journalism, I didn't know him personally. But my sister did, so it affected her. And my sister is my best friend, so it affected me. They weren't close, but it still hurt to see my sister and other people I know saddened by his passing.

Later in the weekend, the news of Flip Saunders' death was all over the internet. Saunders was the head coach for the Minnesota Timberwolves. He passed away after a battle with cancer. Obviously, I didn't personally know the late basketball coach and Minnesota basketball star, but I do follow basketball a bit, so it was sad to hear that news, especially since it seemed liked upsetting news was piling on. Plus, my sister is a huge basketball fan, so she just seemed even more sad than she already was, and I hated seeing that, knowing that.

But the news I got today hurt the most. A few minutes after I got back from class, my mom called. It wasn't peculiar that she seemed to randomly be calling. She's my mom; moms worry about their children and call them, and that seems to be more true when the kid is away at college, away from home.

Learning About Faith and Trust

Even though I got to watch a lot of gymnastics this weekend (including attending two meets), which always makes me feel better, I had a not-so-good weekend.

An assignment for one of my classes was stressing me out all week. I tried to not worry and stress over it, but I just couldn't help it. I felt like nothing was working out. That seemed to be true and reached its peak when I woke up on Saturday morning.

I woke up around 8 AM to my alarm and immediately checked my phone as I was expecting an email due to the problem that I encountered on Friday. The email I was expecting was there. As soon as I finished reading it, I panicked. I felt like everything that could go wrong was, and even though it wasn't, I felt like all of the blame was on me. The worst part of it was that this wasn't only affecting me. It impacted others too.